I know it has. I haven’t posted in a few years. And there are a lot of reasons.
- A dearth of creative flow.
- Mental health issues.
- Letting myself believe writing wasn’t “that important”.
But at the end of the day, it was just me getting tired of dealing with myself. And then the madness that was Life In The Time Of COVID-19 happened.
Shortly into that, I lost my job. I screwed up badly and lost our apartment. I almost lost my wife because of all of that. I lost myself in everything going on around me and tried to keep my mind partially intact.
Then I found myself in a way I hadn’t expected before. Just those moments inside my head. There was a cascade in my mind that kept falling and going until there was finally, incontrovertibly, no way I could ignore it:
I am transgender. What now?
Well. Now I had to figure out what to do next. You don’t need the whole story, but:
- I started hormone replacement, came out to people in my life, and lost some family but added some friends.
- My wife and I are stronger than we were before, having suffered through problems and my large number of fuckups. It’s not perfect, but it’s better.
- I gained and lost a job.
- I learned a few more skills and I’m still learning more.
And now it’s time to keep going. I’m feeling better than I have in years, and I want to get better at my skills. I need a new job, but that’s going to happen soon. I’m also paying more attention to my health, especially after my diagnosis with diabetes along with all the medications with HRT and mental health I need to take and need to try to lose more weight.
I’m planning a few things, which will get documented when and as they happen. We need some stuff out of storage, so with luck that’ll happen soon and I can get it going. I’m not saying more in case plans change, but I have things I want to do.
My name is Genevieve. It’s nice to meet you again.
I hope you’re well.
Anyone who wants to tell me I’m crazy, stupid, some kind of pervert, or wants to express other transphobic BS to me is heartily invited to visit this link.